Let me live without this empty bliss, selfishness

NEW JOURNAL

2006-11-30T02:10:14Z

berkeley_marina

Oh Bullet in a Bible, how I love thee..

2006-11-15T21:02:13Z

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! <3

Keep ya stunna shades onnnnnnnnnn.

2006-10-29T00:27:19Z

=O
omfg.
MOTHERBLEEPING MOUNTAIN GORILLAS!
on A MOTHERBLEEPING LUXARY CRUISER!

nowhereismyhome @ 2006-10-05T10:28:00

2006-10-05T14:28:39Z

WTF.
Skipping school is badddddddddddddd.
HAHAHAHAHA.

Too lazy

2006-09-15T16:47:24Z

Well I'm home sick.

Anyway:
"But Puget promised that AFI will be back in the States this spring for another big headlining tour."

FUCKING STOKED!x

Family Values Tour tomorrow.
W3rd. <3

Roshambo is literally making me cry...ftw. :[

2006-08-26T03:53:36Z

THE NETWORK IS AMAZING.
I love falling in love with them again. <3

Today Bridget (my sister), Russel (her Green Day-hating boyfriend), and I went to the Museum of Science.
We went to the exibit with all the dead bodies...it was HARSH.
I felt so xTUFFx because none of it sicked me out.
It was very disturbing though...

So yes...my day was eventful.

Russel thanked me for the green day desktop as soon as I got on the train.
I made sure I blasted American Idiot from my MP3...he promptly flipped out XD
Eh...we heard Minority on the radio and he changed it.
When we dropped him off, I was like "AwwwgoodnightRussullll!!1"
and I thought I got the last word in.

A second later he screams "GREENDAYSUCKS!"
HAHAHAHAHA!x

<3

RAWR all up in yo face.

2006-08-22T02:11:19Z

I'M LOSING MY MIND,
AHHLDFGHLDLFE142L3.

Should Olivia and I see Snakes on a Plane or Ricky Bobby [again]?

TELL ME.
I can't make decisions without the internet anymore. :[

<3

EDITO:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LiDBwLBlOuw
FUSE FUCKUPS FEATURING GREEN DAY.
chill out it's only 11 seconds long.

01: Ever tasted blood?
Mhm

02: Made out with JUST a friend?
No

03: Been rejected?
Probably. Not like a give a shit

04: Been in love?
Yes. le sigh.

05: Been in lust?
I'M IN LUST WITH JADE.

06: Used someone?
No.

07: Been used?
No

08: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
Hahahaha.

09: Fooled around with someone of the same sex?
No...

10: Been on a date?
That didn't count as a date...

11: Done something you regret?
HEH...yes

Who Was the Last Person That

12: You touched?
Ally? My family?

13: You talked to?
I'm talking to JUSTIN as we speak.

14: You hugged?
Heather

15: You instant messaged?
JUSTIN SQUEE

16: You kissed?
I dont know?

17: You yelled at?
I yelled at chris because he didnt talk to me. :\

18: You laughed at?
I laughed at the stupid VMA commercial P!ATD. "STFU" says brendon. hahaha.

19: You went on a date with?
Kyle?

Do you?

20: Go to school?
Meh..yes

21: Have a crush?
SQUEE

22: Color your hair?
Of course

24: Have Piercings?
Ears for now.

25: Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/significant other:
Hehehe.

26: Floss daily?
Most of the time

27: Have a best bud?
Yes

28: Ever get off the damn computer?
NOT REALLY.

29: Sprechen sie deutsche?
I TAKE SHOWERS. if thats what you're asking...

30: Hablas espanol?
Si.

31: Do you have a job?
Nope.

General Questions

32: Hobbies?
BEING AN AFI/GREEN DAY FANGIRL, music, pissing people off.

33: Are you a people person?
I'M SHY AS HELL

36: Have you been out of the country?
twice

37: When was the last time you went on vacation?
last week

38: Are you a virgin?
yes.

39: Do you share a room?
no

40: Considered a life of crime?
only if i get a lot of $. like being a whore or something.

41: Considered being a hooker?
hahahahaha.

42: Considered being a pimp?
i keep my pimp hand strong, but no.

43: Can you ride a bike?
uh. yes.

44: Can you swim?
mhm

45: Schizophrenic?
no

46: Obsessive?
only during the school year

47: Obsessive compulsive?
that's my disease, man. srsly

48: Panic?
no

49: Anxiety?
sometimes.

50: Depressed?
mmmm paxil.

51: Suicidal?
not at the moment!

52: Obsessed with Hate?
i'm obsessed with your face.

53: Dream of mutilated bodies?
what the fuck.

54. Doing those things instead of just seeing them?
i dont mutilate people, k?

Random Stuff

55: If you could be anywhere, where would you be?
california. you all know why.

56: What would you be doing?
going to gilman shows, finding what street davey and billie live on...rudies cant fail cafe! i didnt spell that right...:[

57: Do you hate anyone?
love your hate.

58: What are you listening to?
air conditioning

59: Can you do anything freakish?
hmmmm...no.

61: Do you have a favorite animal?
cats!

Currently

62: Current Clothes:
jeans and an element shirt

63: Current Mood:
extremely squeeish. not a mood.

64: Current Taste:
HAPPINESS!

65: Current Hair:
dry and ugly looking

66: Current Annoyance:
college visits tomorrow

67: Current Smell:
HAPPINESS! and key lime pie!

68: Current thing I ought to be doing:
sleeping

69: Current Desktop Picture:
the one with afi and davey is holding that cute little bunny. someone said he was eye fucking it or something? i dont know, im tired.

70: Current Favorite Group:
AFI and green day

71: Current Book:
the dante club...it sucks

72: Current DVD In Player:
hmm BIAB probably...as for CD that would be answer that and stay fashionable.

73: Current Refreshment:
water

74: Current Drama:
none! i love the summer.

Favorites

75: Place:
i love a lot of places. boston.

76: Food:
chicken and granola bars. hahahaha. i mean...lucky charms.

77: Fave drink:
water

78: Color:
black, grey...

79. Shoes:
vans

81: Animal:
cats...again.

82: Movie:
BIAB, the ballad of ricky bobby, zoolander, and clandestine when i want to feel like my brain is exploding.

83: Dance:
the one where we dance in misery. *shoots face*.

84: Vegetable:
carrots

Future

85: What do you want to be when you get older?
a groupie...or a doctor.

87: Kids?:
1

88: Living Where?
california or boston

This or That

89: Gay or straight?:
gay gay all the way! look, i rhyme.

90: Boxers or Briefs?:
hahahha

91: Reading or Writing:
writing

92: Basketball or Baseball:
baseball....GO YANKEES. hahaha.

93: Walking or Running?:
walking

94: Face-to-face or Instant Messenger?:
FACE to FACEEEE!!! :]<--haha zal i was thinking the same thing, XD

95: Left or Right?:
left

96: TV Shows or Movies?:
tv shows

97: Britney or Christina?:
christina. i love you girl! haha

98: Rap or Rock?:
ROCK MOTHERFUCKER.

99: Day or Night?:
night

100. What do people call you?:
kayla, ksaint, or ksquish!

nowhereismyhome @ 2006-08-15T14:48:00

2006-08-15T18:51:01Z

Give me $.
Please?

:D

I posted this in smileinjected but I'm putting it here too.

LOLLERZ.

I really want to go shopping...
Weird.

Comment or die.
Nobody likes a dead person.

nowhereismyhome @ 2006-08-14T16:35:00

2006-08-14T20:42:41Z

I'm going out later.
Just thought I'd update with me schedule so you can all laugh at my stupid classes.

Physics Honors
Calculus Honors
Zoology
Brit Lit Honors
Civ/Giv Honors
Micro Applications [Keyboarding]
AP Spanish...
GRAPHIC DESIGN. <3.

I HOPE YOUR BATTERY DIES!x

HAHAHAHAHA...ROFL.
I kill myself badly.

PS-I was at my sister's house and since her boyfriend hates Green Day so much, I got a sexy wallpaper for him. A nice sexy Green Day wallpaper. HAHA. FACE.

nowhereismyhome @ 2006-08-12T23:30:00

2006-08-13T03:34:19Z

Go see Talladega Nights:
The Ballad of Ricky Bobby.

Right now.

Dear baby Jesus.

<3

I wrote this this morning.

2006-08-12T20:29:30Z

It's 2:30 and I am fucking tired.

Tired out of my fucking mind. fuck fuck fuckkk.

I'm talking to some guy from the DF board. He's nice.
Just had an aim chat with 10 others. AFI fans are nice.

He's giving me some jr college's in California.
-Santa Monica
-Fulleton
-Orange Coast College
-Santa Ana College
-Santiago Canyon College

Because I really want to go to school there.
Ferserious.

Berkeley!
Davey and Billie are neighbors.

I really want to sleep.
Yadda yadda.
I'll probably delete this soon.

12403920460569ksdgkaskdgLETTERS! NUMBERS.
I'M FUCKING CRAZY!

Give me sugar not nuts and twigs. hahahahaha
This is the part where my head explodes.

Anyway...you bitches need to IM me sometime at 3 when I'm not completely retarded. aksfkakf,

KAYLA32189.

Do itttt.

nowhereismyhome @ 2006-08-11T16:15:00

2006-08-11T20:15:58Z

Poor Jade's face.

But seriously, how did he do it...?

Semi-random pic post.

2006-08-11T02:58:16Z

Miss Jeffree Star and Davey...looking adorable.

Davey [before the MTV awards.]
Nervous. as. hell.

This one kills me every time.

Ninja love.

4 is enough.
I'm tired.

Now comment and tell me how ridiculously goodlooking they are.
and...GO! again.

<3

Faux Festa is in season.

2006-08-04T02:39:28Z

These lovely men, along with Hunter and Adam, were on TRL today.

My favorite part:
When Talia asked the boys what they thought about mothers going to shows.

The VJ was like "OMGZ NO WAII MOMZ GO TO SHOWZ!!11one. BUT THEY AREN'T HIP AND MTV ENOUGH TO GO TO SHOWZ! THEY'RE OLD. Oh wait I forgot you guys are old enough to be fathers! Oopsies!!!"

Well, he didn't say it...but that's basically what went through his mind. I can tell.

MTV sucks. TRL sucks. Who remembers when they cut Green Day off?
BLASPHEMY DAMNIT.

Fuse is where it's at.

For all those who know who faux festa is:
I think she's nucking futs.
End.

So about that time I flipped a shit over youtube.

2006-08-01T21:13:57Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=diaX-Gn1fRs

^The AFI friendship chain omg!^

The only reason I'm posting this is because:

A] I made one of the links. :D
B] AFI fans pwn your face hardcore.
C] Smith saved the day [grabs tape with ninja like reflexes!].
D] It's just tooo fuckinnngg cute.

I'm celebrating the awesomeness of this moment by finally joining the Despair Faction.
Because I have a feeling the AFI fanclub is one billion times better than Green Day's

<3
.
*happy for the first time in a long time*
Be happy with me!

I'm so jealous of Fay right now.

2006-07-31T02:55:08Z

As soon as I turn 18 I am so getting a tat.

IDEAS?

Something GD/AFI related.

anddddd GO!

nowhereismyhome @ 2006-07-27T23:20:00

2006-07-28T03:26:58Z

ilu.
all of you.
<3.

This is two days late.

2006-07-24T16:37:46Z

Karen Marie Saint Pierre
July 21 1969-July 22, 2000

I love you mom.
Not a day goes by where I don't think of you.
But it's getting harder to remember your voice, your face...

She's so high
High above me
She's so lovely
She's so high
Like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc or Aphrodite.
She's so high, high above me.

</3

nowhereismyhome @ 2006-07-19T16:46:00

2006-07-19T20:47:39Z

ALL YOU PEOPLE NOT STUCK IN MEDICAL FORUMS DO THIS:

leave me a nice long comment
just tell me how life is
or anything going on in the outside world.

thank you for your time.

<3

nowhereismyhome @ 2006-07-16T08:22:00

2006-07-16T12:23:05Z

Leaving for 9 days.

BYE.

The Boy Who Destroyed the World.

2006-07-13T02:38:43Z

"I'll set the world on fire
and in the burning light
I will write my first love song."

I'm majorly and sadly getting addicted to the AFI messageboard...
One of you needs to make an account on there...for me! Chyeah right, no one will do it.

Today I did nothing special.
I had an appointment at Mass General [Hospital].
FYI-I have one kidney! It's a secret...well, not anymore.
So my one kidney and I are lovely...

The Nephilim...it's on mah shirt! You wish you had one.
BUT CHOO DON'T!!1one

I just watched a thing from the Elvis Costello whatchamacallit.
I swear I see Fay and Heidi right behind Billie.
PS-BILLIE IS ALIVE? since when? -.-
I missed Billie.

Sorry, Jade has the hella raddest hair. Radder than Billie's. Way Radder than your grandmas.
It's the MULL-HAWK. Come onnnnnn.

In other news...
I'm pissed that none of you comment me.
>_< *head explodes*

...

THE END.

PS: "Alot of love for Green Day, that's good. They're great guys and all that success couldn't have happened to nicer people. Billy even let Dave and I use his house to write some new songs in for this upcoming record." Jade Puget

Jade can't even spell Billie's name.
BUT IT MAKES ME HAPPY!!! :]

Our dreams seemed not far away...

2006-07-10T03:31:21Z

I haven't updated this muthafucka in a while, so yeah here I am. My life is peachy. As usual. Hung out with Katie and some other people 4 or 5 days ago. 9 Hours of NON STOP FUN!!1111111111one! Yeah. Walker Texas Ranger is the only thing I remember from the whole thing. I heart you Chuck Norris!!!1

2 days ago I saw Pirates with Andrea and Rachel. It was hella lame. But that's just me. Actually, no. No one I know has liked it that much. I was starting to think I walked into Passion of the Christ, that shit was looooonnnnnnnngggggggg. Mhm.

I haven't hung out with any of my friends since. Meh, I'll make plans tomorrow.

Oh wow, did I mention that I'm leaving on Sunday? Yeah, for 9 days. That's going to be fun, because I'm going to the NATIONAL YOUTH LEADERSHIP FORUM ON MEDICINE11!@! Wooo, the thrills I will have. So, this week is basically going to be me: cleaning like a psycho bitch to ear money and pay back my concert debt, hanging out, and crying because I don't want to leave North Reading. Minus the last one.

I plan on creating trouble.
Comment me and tell me how hardcore I am plzzz.
/sarcasm.

I have to go now, Tony is being a prick and told me I have to sign off now.

Fuck that shit.

nowhereismyhome @ 2006-07-02T14:39:00

2006-07-02T18:42:37Z

Panic! at the Disco
Tonight at the Avalon
With Ally, Olivia, Bmax and Amanda.

our hearts are italicized, bolded, and totally underlined.
<3

Strike up the band, the conductor is beckoning.
Come congregation, lets sing it like you mean it.

PS-THANKS FOR THE MANY COMMENTS ON MY LAST POST.!!!
end sarcasm.

AFI owned my face, what what?

2006-06-21T17:24:51Z

A Fire Inside [x] June 20th, 2006

After I finished my last 2 finals, Ally and I went to the Reading train station and took the...train lol to Boston.
Then we took the T and walked to Lansdowne...to The Avalon.

Pre-Show
We got in line around 2 and sat by some doors and got away from the sun.
Made a few friends...and talked about AFI. Dur.
Then all of a sudden, I do a double take..and see SMITH. Ahh, Smith Puget love. I called that before we got there. Mhmm.
Then a half hour after AFI (hoshit) came out of the tour bus.
We were 5 feet away from them...Davey was like "Hi guysss." <3
I got a pic of Jade's head. Props, Ally :D
More waiting, Jade and Adam went to the bus. I CALLED IT. haha. Both times.
Then we heard sound check. I listened through a crack in the door. They did Prelude 12/21, The Killing Lights and Love Like Winter. That got our little crew excited.
MORE WAITING...

Some weird homeless guy that we named Steve the Masochist was doing strange things.
I DON'T WANT TO GO INTO DETAIL. Basically. Keys and cameras.
15 minutes before the show we basically cut 50 or 60 people. My idea. It was worth it.

Show
We stood for an hour and then Nightmare of You began,
Since we were in the '2nd row' I held onto the barrier. It was chill. They're cool..
Then DILLENGER ESCAPE PLAN came on.
If you like shitty screamo metal bands, you'd toally LOVE THEM.
They got the stupid metalheads pushing everyone.
Wanna see my bruises? Noyoudon'tkthnx.
It was hXc and not in the good way...
The wait between DEP and AFI was painful.
Literally and figuratively. Owch.
All the kids we were with were taken out of the pit. Ally was a person away...
Soooo...I thought I heard Miseria..
but it was Prelude..I was disappointed. :[ Miseria Cantare>Prelude 12/21. Trust me.
They came on stage...meaning Davey was 5 feet in front of me. Gahhh. Whenever I saw them, I was THIS CLOSE. Amazing.
Everything is basically a blur. But when I was in that crowd I felt invincable.
For the beginning anyway.

At one point I asked Smith for water, and he poured a half a bottle all over me.
WTF SMITH, I wanted to drink that not wear it. argh.

I kept watching Davey, like he was hypnotizing me. It was trippy.
His voice was angelic.
I looked at Jade and Hunter too...not Adam, though. I didn't even know where he was. lol.
But Davey...dayummm.
I made him smile. Yep.
He looked at me, and I saw, and put on the biggest, most adorable smile.
Yeah I have a cute smile. *head explodes*
And then HE smiled. He hardly smiled the whole night. He was in the zone, yo.
And I made him smile. That made my night..
ps-No, I was not hallucinating. I am 100% sure.

All around me people were pushing and jumping and dripping scary bodily fluids on me.
I am not a GIRLY GIRL, but I was grossed out. Bleh..
By Girl's Not Grey, which was near the end, I thought I was going to pass out. Ally saved my life I think. Ally>you. Except it.
The last 10 minutes I was in the pit the only reason I was standing was because people were squishing me in place. It was the roughest pit ever. ROUGHER THAN FOB lmfao.
We got pulled out and some guy put me on some equipment.
Then some other guy was yelling at him because the band exits there. I WAS MAD, K.
Then he placed me on a stoop. And gave me water. LMFAO. $3.50 water for free.
I missed Death of Seasons and God Called in Sick Today. DOS is my favorite AFI song. *tear*
But whatever...

Setlist [not in order]:
Prelude 12/21
The Leaving Song Pt 2.
Bleed Black
Ever and a Day
Dancing through Sunday
Kill Caustic
The Killing Lights
Silver and Cold
This Time Imperfect
Totalimmortal
Girl's Not Grey
Love Like Winter
Days of the Pheonix
Death of Seasons [missed.]
God Called in Sick Today [missed.]
[I might be missing one or two.]

Post-Show
Blah blah blah.

I MET HUNTER.
Oh faceeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D
Our convo went like this:

Hunter: Hey
Me: Hey, can I get a pic?
Hunter: Sure
Me: Don't mind me, I'm sweaty and gross
Hunter: That's okay, I'll hover.
*CLICK.*
Me: Thank you!
Hunter: You're welcome!

Hunter is the bassist in case you didn't know. I luff him.
He is amazing and nice and sweet.
You probably don't get the hover thing. Too bad I'm not explaining. :]

The rest of my night is a whole bunch of nothing special.
This is why I love music so much.
I live for this now.

If you don't comment, I will delete you. Bwhahaha.

<3italicized.

nowhereismyhome @ 2006-06-18T18:10:00

2006-06-18T22:12:13Z

Finals for the next two days.
Tuesday is AFI day.
Don't expect an update 'til Wednesday
A BIG MOTHA FUCKIN UPDATE, yo.

Gotta go, I'm sweating like a beast
:D